Back after all these years

I started back to school a few weeks ago and to be very honest was extremely intimidated. It wasn't the old walk into class, take a seat near the back, get out something to take some notes and keep yourself from dozing off. I'm doing this online and it seems that the video lectures are speeded up and it's as though the first weeks assignment was to read the first 33 books of the Bible and then finish that off with War and Peace. I have read and written more in the past couple of weeks than I have done in years. It has been great! I received my first 2 grades and got A's on both. I was amazed as I really don't know what I'm doing, but saying what I know and have read. I even got an email from one of the professors congratulating me on getting one of the few A's in the class. I believe it was a form letter and there ARE only 20 of us in the class. I'm still getting used to this online stuff, but it is fun to think again. One of my classes was talking about the parts of the brain and how the different parts use the chemicals to allow us to think and breath and move and speak. It went on to say that if you don't use a part of your brain, that eventually your brain assumes you dont need it so it shuts down. I believe mine had not only shut down, but was covered in dust. We are fearfully and wonderfully made and when we dont use that part after a while, somehow, another part starts and takes up the slack and we are off and running again. I thank the Lord for all that He gives me, but one of the gifts He has given me and I didnt even realize was the gift to learn, even when I thought I had turned out the lights. He went back and turned them right back on.

Finally understood that voice

All my life, it has been foremost to understand people....to figure what they are thinking, to feel what they are feeling, to hear what they are saying...its been about others..I know what I think and feel and say(even when it may not make sense, so here I am at 56 and finally realized this is hat God intended for me all my life...I finally am understanding what He has in store for me to do and be. I enrolled at Liberty University a few weeks ago, got my books and read the introduction and the author was writing exactly the same things I have known, experienced, thought and felt for a lifetime...I love it when I can listen to someone, ask a few probing questions, ask a few directional questions and then watch the light come on for someone...I love it when God becomes real to them and suddenly they see Him as if he had been behind some shroud that had encompassed their life...and they are so relieved that they are no longer alone in their suffering...I think back to the folks that God has used me to help Him with and how their lives are so different now then how they were...I believe to be a good counselor, you have to find God(your spiritual life), get connected(emotional and mental lives change focus from self to others and to spiritual life)and then live it(physical life comes into play at this point along with all other 3 aspects) and you suddenly are living, thinking, feeling and believing in someothing greater than yourself and as you grow in this journey, you find the more reliant that you become in God, the more meaningful your life becomes...I know many do not believe there is a God...and in case thats true hold your breath, because I believe you are borrowing my God's air...and unless you can create something from nothing, then this is God's.